Thought

Have you ever had a thought or question of why you are here? Or even why is my life the way it is? Lately I've been thinking of these two questions. I know that this life is not about me and also the trails that I have been going threw is for someone else, but what if I don't like the path that I'm on? Do I really have a choice in the matter? These past few weeks have been really hard for me. For the first time in a long time, I feel alone. I have not been to church in a few weeks because I don't feel like I fit in there. Although everyone is loving and welcome you with open arms, I just see everyone there and they know each other very well and I don't know anyone. On top of that, this is the first time I'm here as a single women. Yes I'm dating someone but he does not go with me so I'm alone. How can I grow in the Lord when I feel like I don't matter to him or anyone else around me? How can I possibly be used by him when half the time I don't act like I belong to him?


Just a thought.......