Amid Solitude
Around the world we are dealing
with a crisis, something my generation has never seen before. Companies have
made employees work from home while some have been let go. You do however, have
some workers that are considered “Essential” and they have to go to work no
matter what. I am one of those employees. Each day you wake up knowing that
your very position is a risk gives you a different outlook on life. Did I sign
up for this? Yes however, no one ever thought it would be of this magnitude. So
many people have lost their lives and the number changes as the days go by.
If you have a moment to really sit
back during this time to reflect, I suggest doing so. I was put in a position
of exposure which lead me to quarantine myself for two weeks. Two whole weeks
of not being able to leave your house to do something so simple as getting the mail
or sitting on the porch without wearing a mask was beyond stressful. Even
still, this gave me time to reflect. Reflect on my life, how far I’ve come, how
I survived so many losses, and yet I’m still standing to speak my story. I’m
not spending this time alone to prepare for my death, I am spending this time
preparing for my life. There are so many things that I have prayed for and yet
forgot all about. It’s until those moments when your alone with God that your
reminded of what you’ve asked him for. It’s one thing to ask for something and
it’s another thing to fully prepare for what you’ve asked for. I was reminded
of my prayers for another child and how I need to truly prepare for him or her.
Now it’s time to do the work. I
need to get my mind, body, and spirit ready for what I’ve asked for years ago.
I have this prayer box that I put things into in part of preparation. I have
stuff for when I get married and now for my future children. Faith without
works is dead and it’s what you can’t see not what you can. It’s one thing to
read the scriptures and it’s another to fully digest the word and start walking
it out with him. It’s time for me to walk with him and do this together side by
side. Am I afraid of this season? Absolutely however, from the words of Pastor
Steven Furtick “Fear can be in the car with you, but you don’t have to let it
drive.”
Here’s to walking this out
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