Amid Solitude


Around the world we are dealing with a crisis, something my generation has never seen before. Companies have made employees work from home while some have been let go. You do however, have some workers that are considered “Essential” and they have to go to work no matter what. I am one of those employees. Each day you wake up knowing that your very position is a risk gives you a different outlook on life. Did I sign up for this? Yes however, no one ever thought it would be of this magnitude. So many people have lost their lives and the number changes as the days go by.

If you have a moment to really sit back during this time to reflect, I suggest doing so. I was put in a position of exposure which lead me to quarantine myself for two weeks. Two whole weeks of not being able to leave your house to do something so simple as getting the mail or sitting on the porch without wearing a mask was beyond stressful. Even still, this gave me time to reflect. Reflect on my life, how far I’ve come, how I survived so many losses, and yet I’m still standing to speak my story. I’m not spending this time alone to prepare for my death, I am spending this time preparing for my life. There are so many things that I have prayed for and yet forgot all about. It’s until those moments when your alone with God that your reminded of what you’ve asked him for. It’s one thing to ask for something and it’s another thing to fully prepare for what you’ve asked for. I was reminded of my prayers for another child and how I need to truly prepare for him or her. 

Now it’s time to do the work. I need to get my mind, body, and spirit ready for what I’ve asked for years ago. I have this prayer box that I put things into in part of preparation. I have stuff for when I get married and now for my future children. Faith without works is dead and it’s what you can’t see not what you can. It’s one thing to read the scriptures and it’s another to fully digest the word and start walking it out with him. It’s time for me to walk with him and do this together side by side. Am I afraid of this season? Absolutely however, from the words of Pastor Steven Furtick “Fear can be in the car with you, but you don’t have to let it drive.”

Here’s to walking this out  

Comments

This is very beautiful Syliece. And thanks for being an inspiration to me.

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