Identity

When the dreams, goals, and plans you have made for yourself do not come to pass. What do you do then? Do you throw in the towel? Create a new plan? Revaluate the premises of your plans in the first place? I have found myself in this space. The space of what did I do, where did I go wrong, was the plan correct in the first place?

I am learning that I have to go back to the drawing board. The goals I have set for my life were not bad ones, it's just I have to be realistic with the timeline. Yes others before me crossed that finish line in a fast pace, however they are not me and I'm not them. I have to be honest with myself to see if those plans were made for myself or others. I know that God knows what he is doing and I have to trust him along the way.

Now that I have to take this time to step back, it's time to see who I am. Am I the mother, the wife, the daughter, the nurse I dream of becoming? Or do I still have work to do?  You never want to get to the place of not growing or evolving. Complacency has never been my place to stay so that has been the least of my concern. My biggest concern is not being content where I am. Can I truly take this time to sit back, relax, replenish, and rest? I have not been the one to rest or sit in many years. I guess I have done all I can do and have no other choice. You can't rush the process because when you do, you will surely miss a few steps.

Now it's time for me to take a break to develop my identity in not what I do, but in who I am.