Friendship Bubble
Why do I think about you all the time? Why do I become
fearful to tell you how I feel? Why do I become so frustrated or irritated when
you don’t call me? Why does it take you so long to respond to a single message?
When I think of you, all these emotions come up and its hard to control them.
What is wrong with me? What have you done to me? Is it possible to have a deep
connection with someone before even connecting?
When I’m around others, all I
think about is you. I know our plates our full but why can’t we make time for
each other? Why can’t you make time for me? Why do I have to be placed in the
friendship bubble when I know you see more than that in me? How do you expect me
to act when I’m around you? My heart is clearly exposed to you, yet you don’t
want it.
What did she do to you to make you not want to love anyone again? How
much pain did she cause to make you so fearful to try again? I’ve been through
so much in my past however it doesn’t negate from the fact that life is
different from the last person. I know what it’s like to be afraid of something
new or something different, but you must at least try.
In the meantime, I guess
I’ll stay in the friendship bubble wondering how long I will stand any of this.
How long will I allow myself to feel these things for a man whose walls are so
far up I can’t even climb them. How long will I stay in this bubble until I finally
pull the needle out of my pocket and bust out and simply……………walk away?
Will you even notice that I'm gone?
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