Getting help

After years of trying to heal from my past and truly move on, I have decided with prayer to go to therapy. At first I was embarrassed and even ashamed to say that I don't have it all together.  To be honest, I don't have it all together I'm actually an emotional hot mess and I want my life back.

My first session showed me that I have a lot of pain o work threw. At first I thought it was just my marriage however, I know that's just the tip of the iceberg. At the bottom all the way to he bottom of the core of me is a deep rooted pain from my childhood. I had to face the truth, I was never told I was beautiful. Your parents set the tone for your life, they teach you and show you the things that are okay and the things that are unacceptable. Mine showed me that verbal abuse was ok. I mean who would like to be called a bitch by their mother? Or even a fat ass by their grandmother? Well I have and I know that their is a long way to recovery for me. Pray for me.